Wednesday, June 30, 2004
A Joke for joo
HEAVENLY MARRIAGE
On their way to a justice of the peace to get married, a couple had a fatal car accident. The couple found themselves sitting outside heaven's gate waiting on St. Peter. While waiting, they wondered if they could possibly get married in heaven. St. Peter finally showed up and they asked him. St. Peter said, "I don't know, this is the first time anyone has asked. Let me go find out." And he left. The couple sat and waited for an answer. For months. They began to wonder if they really should get married in heaven, what with the eternal aspect of it all. "What if it doesn't work out?" they wondered. The man pondered, "Are we stuck together forever?" St. Peter returned after yet another month, looking somewhat bedraggled. "Yes," he informed the couple, "you can get married in heaven." "Great," said the couple, "but what if things don't work out? Could we also get a divorce in heaven?" St. Peter, red-faced, slammed his clipboard onto the ground. "What's wrong?" asked the frightened couple. "Come on!" St. Peter shouted. "It took me three months to find a priest up here! Do you have any idea how long it will take me to find a lawyer?"
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HEAVENLY MARRIAGE
On their way to a justice of the peace to get married, a couple had a fatal car accident. The couple found themselves sitting outside heaven's gate waiting on St. Peter. While waiting, they wondered if they could possibly get married in heaven. St. Peter finally showed up and they asked him. St. Peter said, "I don't know, this is the first time anyone has asked. Let me go find out." And he left. The couple sat and waited for an answer. For months. They began to wonder if they really should get married in heaven, what with the eternal aspect of it all. "What if it doesn't work out?" they wondered. The man pondered, "Are we stuck together forever?" St. Peter returned after yet another month, looking somewhat bedraggled. "Yes," he informed the couple, "you can get married in heaven." "Great," said the couple, "but what if things don't work out? Could we also get a divorce in heaven?" St. Peter, red-faced, slammed his clipboard onto the ground. "What's wrong?" asked the frightened couple. "Come on!" St. Peter shouted. "It took me three months to find a priest up here! Do you have any idea how long it will take me to find a lawyer?"
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004
Mikes Diary said:
"Fahrenheit 9/11 was a solid picture, I was more excited sitting in that movie theater and hearing the applause at then end than I have been in a long time at the movies. I got more emotion out of watching this then I know I will with the Spider-Man movies, or most other movies for that matter."
I also saw Fahrenheit 9/11, and I had a different opimion on it. I also enjoyed it, but the applause at the end made me wonder how much people no besides what they saw there. There were scenes that was strictly propaganda taken from the terrorist news network (Al-Gaziir (sp?) news network). THose scenes I didnt like becasue we dont no everything that happened prior. I have trouble with scenes where it dosent show the whole picture, mainly because anyone can take a similar scene and probable twist it to a differnt point.
Anyway... I also have to say there were alot of scenes in the movie that I agreed with, and that i am also anti bush. I just didnt like the one message which was anti-war in iraq. I really dont care what your fealings are on the war in Iraq, because it wont change the fact that they are there. THe fact that they are there means we should support them in everything we do. We dont want them coming home and then be chastized for being in the army. They should come home and feal like the saviors they are. It is not our soldiers fault that our goverment is to worried about support from other nations to do things right. And I dont no when Bush started to care. What we should do is not make peace with any of the of those supposid 'clerics' and go into there hiding places and blow the crap out of it all. The only thing they are going to respect is force, and what we have to do is use the force we can and make them understand. Basically what I am trying to say is kill the fuckers who are killing our soldiers. THat is all I have to say right now. Adios!
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"Fahrenheit 9/11 was a solid picture, I was more excited sitting in that movie theater and hearing the applause at then end than I have been in a long time at the movies. I got more emotion out of watching this then I know I will with the Spider-Man movies, or most other movies for that matter."
I also saw Fahrenheit 9/11, and I had a different opimion on it. I also enjoyed it, but the applause at the end made me wonder how much people no besides what they saw there. There were scenes that was strictly propaganda taken from the terrorist news network (Al-Gaziir (sp?) news network). THose scenes I didnt like becasue we dont no everything that happened prior. I have trouble with scenes where it dosent show the whole picture, mainly because anyone can take a similar scene and probable twist it to a differnt point.
Anyway... I also have to say there were alot of scenes in the movie that I agreed with, and that i am also anti bush. I just didnt like the one message which was anti-war in iraq. I really dont care what your fealings are on the war in Iraq, because it wont change the fact that they are there. THe fact that they are there means we should support them in everything we do. We dont want them coming home and then be chastized for being in the army. They should come home and feal like the saviors they are. It is not our soldiers fault that our goverment is to worried about support from other nations to do things right. And I dont no when Bush started to care. What we should do is not make peace with any of the of those supposid 'clerics' and go into there hiding places and blow the crap out of it all. The only thing they are going to respect is force, and what we have to do is use the force we can and make them understand. Basically what I am trying to say is kill the fuckers who are killing our soldiers. THat is all I have to say right now. Adios!
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Thursday, June 24, 2004
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004
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Monday, June 21, 2004
I am bored and hungry. No one answers there phones, and the one that did didnt want to eat (which wasnt a surprise). Blah! This sucks, and I want company!
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Sunday, June 20, 2004
So I just went for a drive, no one seemed to want to join me so I drove by myself. At one point in time I stopped in a parking lot and just thought to myself, now be forewarned that my mood is very dark. SO I was sitting there thinking, If I got in a car accident and was badly hurt, what would I do? Who would I call? The answers I gave myself kinda surprised me, yet they didnt. First I think I would call 911 (for obvious reasons) then I would try home. Chances are that at 12 at night my parents would sleep through the phone. If that were the case I would call sheila... That is where my answer kind of surprised me. I was sitting there thinking, why would I call her next, when she basically hates me at the moment. Then the answer came to me... She only hates me for the day, when down the road there are more important things than one's pride. I would clal her because I would want to tell her one last time that I loved her, and actaully thank her for making me feal loved and... wanted for so long. I would also entrust her with a mission of ut most importance. To go to my fmaily and tell them that I love them also... Well that and to wake up my parents. I really didnt get much farther in that scenario of life. I really hope I wont get in one, yet at the same time I wonder who would come visit me in the hospital. Besides family I can only think of 4 maybe 5 people who would definitly come visit.
Strange things come to my mind when I am upset, and second guessing myself alot. I mean in a strange way I was hoping ot get in a car accident, but I really don't want to be in one... that was just stupid thinking.
Okay, now I stopped in the parking lot to think, and when that was done I started to head home. I see that the police have the off ramp from RT 9 blocked so I cant get off there. So I figure there just doign soem night work around the bridge and go to throckmorton the other way to see if they would let me pass to get home. Well I come up from there and see that they arent working on the bridge, but the area is covered with ambulences, Fire Trucks, Police from freehold township and boro. I then see at least one totaled car in a ditch, and what looked like firemen trying to cut someone out of a car. My heart automatically feals for that person and there family. THen I think, if I didnt stop and think at BN, could that of been me? THe timish seemed right. I was sitting hte the parking lot for 15, 20 mins. I wonder if someone else had to go through what I was wondering about. I realize now that my problems are some small when compared to shit people have to go through everyday of there lives. I mean, I sit and wonder sometimes how some of my family deals with everyday after the loss of there child, or grandchild? I wonder how my cousins deal with everyday when they wake up and ther other brother is not there. I just cant imagine dealing with it.
On a totally differnt note, I started typing this outside on my deck. First the airconditoner kicking on scared the hell out of me, and then a lot of strange noises... So I got freaked out and now I am inside on the couch.
So I have to say something to people important out there. To all of my friend, you are all important to me, and I would do anything to help any of you. Regardless of how we might be getting along at the time, I will always be there to help.
To sheila, for the past 4 (?) years that I have known you I have seen you change. From a little freshman to a graduate. In this time you have grown up as a person. In a physical way you have become much prettier than that first night we hung out. Yet, I still remember that first night vividly. I also remember the getting caught by the cop, but I wont get into that here... Anyway, I hope in some ways I have helped you grow as a person in a positive light. I always tried to be there for you regardless of the situation. I always tried to help you with school work, even though more often than not I failed miserable at doing that. I always felt proud of you when you came home and had good grades. I know our relationship started out a little shaky in some ways because around people I new I acted like a prick and didnt act like we were dating. I soon got over that once I consciously realized I was doing it and how it hurt you and I think things picked up from there. Everyday from then on I fell more for you, and soon I started to try to make you happy. I guess thats where I go wrong, I shouldnt try to make people happy. You were always more happy with me just being me and not trying anything. Anyway I am getting off track with this so I will end the Sheila section here... Sheila I want to publicly apologize for leaving your graduation party early today. I know you think it is becasue I had a date, but that is not true. I left just becasue I feel awkward around you now that we are not together. When I look at you I get such a jumble of mixed emotions that I get lost. Overall I want to just pull you close to me and hold you. I see your hands and I just wnat to hold them. I see your mouth and I want to kiss you. That is how I feal right now, and that is why I feal awkward around you. I just dont no how to feal or act or anything! It will just take me some time to get through this and if you really want to be my friend you will have to bear with me.
(I am fealing very sentamental at the moment, so dont mind me)
To 'the boys' as we were once known. For those that dont no, that is Matt, John and Gerry... You guys are my best friends and have been since middle school. you guys have been like brothers to me and I couldnt ask for better friends. Thanks for being there for me whenever I asked, and I will always be there for you guys. *gives hug* Its not a long post, but I can be short sweet and to the point about you guys...
So with that I am going to end this gigantic post. I actually feal better that I have written it, and I feal that I have gotten alot off of my chest. Some things in life just make you sit and think, and this is one of those times for me. I now just have to plot a long term plan for myself out and do everything I can to reach that goal. With that PEACE OUT !
(this was only around 1255 words!)
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Strange things come to my mind when I am upset, and second guessing myself alot. I mean in a strange way I was hoping ot get in a car accident, but I really don't want to be in one... that was just stupid thinking.
Okay, now I stopped in the parking lot to think, and when that was done I started to head home. I see that the police have the off ramp from RT 9 blocked so I cant get off there. So I figure there just doign soem night work around the bridge and go to throckmorton the other way to see if they would let me pass to get home. Well I come up from there and see that they arent working on the bridge, but the area is covered with ambulences, Fire Trucks, Police from freehold township and boro. I then see at least one totaled car in a ditch, and what looked like firemen trying to cut someone out of a car. My heart automatically feals for that person and there family. THen I think, if I didnt stop and think at BN, could that of been me? THe timish seemed right. I was sitting hte the parking lot for 15, 20 mins. I wonder if someone else had to go through what I was wondering about. I realize now that my problems are some small when compared to shit people have to go through everyday of there lives. I mean, I sit and wonder sometimes how some of my family deals with everyday after the loss of there child, or grandchild? I wonder how my cousins deal with everyday when they wake up and ther other brother is not there. I just cant imagine dealing with it.
On a totally differnt note, I started typing this outside on my deck. First the airconditoner kicking on scared the hell out of me, and then a lot of strange noises... So I got freaked out and now I am inside on the couch.
So I have to say something to people important out there. To all of my friend, you are all important to me, and I would do anything to help any of you. Regardless of how we might be getting along at the time, I will always be there to help.
To sheila, for the past 4 (?) years that I have known you I have seen you change. From a little freshman to a graduate. In this time you have grown up as a person. In a physical way you have become much prettier than that first night we hung out. Yet, I still remember that first night vividly. I also remember the getting caught by the cop, but I wont get into that here... Anyway, I hope in some ways I have helped you grow as a person in a positive light. I always tried to be there for you regardless of the situation. I always tried to help you with school work, even though more often than not I failed miserable at doing that. I always felt proud of you when you came home and had good grades. I know our relationship started out a little shaky in some ways because around people I new I acted like a prick and didnt act like we were dating. I soon got over that once I consciously realized I was doing it and how it hurt you and I think things picked up from there. Everyday from then on I fell more for you, and soon I started to try to make you happy. I guess thats where I go wrong, I shouldnt try to make people happy. You were always more happy with me just being me and not trying anything. Anyway I am getting off track with this so I will end the Sheila section here... Sheila I want to publicly apologize for leaving your graduation party early today. I know you think it is becasue I had a date, but that is not true. I left just becasue I feel awkward around you now that we are not together. When I look at you I get such a jumble of mixed emotions that I get lost. Overall I want to just pull you close to me and hold you. I see your hands and I just wnat to hold them. I see your mouth and I want to kiss you. That is how I feal right now, and that is why I feal awkward around you. I just dont no how to feal or act or anything! It will just take me some time to get through this and if you really want to be my friend you will have to bear with me.
(I am fealing very sentamental at the moment, so dont mind me)
To 'the boys' as we were once known. For those that dont no, that is Matt, John and Gerry... You guys are my best friends and have been since middle school. you guys have been like brothers to me and I couldnt ask for better friends. Thanks for being there for me whenever I asked, and I will always be there for you guys. *gives hug* Its not a long post, but I can be short sweet and to the point about you guys...
So with that I am going to end this gigantic post. I actually feal better that I have written it, and I feal that I have gotten alot off of my chest. Some things in life just make you sit and think, and this is one of those times for me. I now just have to plot a long term plan for myself out and do everything I can to reach that goal. With that PEACE OUT !
(this was only around 1255 words!)
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Saturday, June 19, 2004
What a fuckign day... People dont understand me, and I dont no what to fucking do... Today sheila had her Graduation party, I showed up but didnt stay to long. I just couldn't. I went in there and told myself I was going to have a good time, if for no other reason than to be a friend to sheila... Well I couldnt, I am just lost when around her. I don't no how to act, or feal or anything. I am simple just lost! It really does suck. Well anyway, she got mad at me for leavign so soon. I really wish she would understand things from how i see them. She dosent seem to be havign a big problem with us breaking up, but its a little harder for me. I tend to get attached, and when things go bad for me they go really bad. I dont take fealing upset well. So the time I was there I just felt very awkward, I didnt no what to do with myself. When I saw her for hte first time today I didnt no what to do... Do I go and give her a hug? Do I say hi and walk on? Do I go and give her a hug and kiss? I really dont no, and I was lost. So we a little later we put together a volley ball net, just hte two of us. That went okay, even though we barely said a word to each other. Then later she yelled at me for somethign stupid. Maybe I am just to sensitive today, I guess thats it. I dont no. Anyway, around an hour after that I left. I just couldnt see myself having a good time in my current state of mind. I was actually considering going back later when maybe more people would be there, but I could tell she was mad at me so I stopped that line of thought. So now I have no idea if she wants to be my friend anymore, or make hte attempt to or what. She probable talked badly about me to her family, and her friends. All her friends basically already didnt like me so that isnt anything big. But I think I had some respect from her family. Now that is probable all gone. I dont no... At the moment I just feal really depressed. I even went out with some friends and just couldnt get into a good mood, and to them I apologize. Its just alot of crap on my mind. okay I am going. bye
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
I was looking at the wedding pictures again, and I have come to the conclusion that I have a better smilein pictures when I am not trying to fake it AND when I have a few in me...
Anyway, I am bored right now and have nothing to do :-(
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Anyway, I am bored right now and have nothing to do :-(
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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Hey everybody! How is everything? Well things have been improving for me. I am getting over the breakup with Sheila and so on... I think it helps that I have been talking to someone else, so I shall see how that goes. I am hoping it goes well, I need a little TLC. :-) I have work today, and sheila is suppose to come over when I get out. I am hoping that I am working with a few people and I can cut out early. I dont really feal liek working. I havent felt friendly lately, and that always carrys over when I am talking to people at work. Working commision, you have to be friendly. At the same time I am worried about how things with sheila will go, we are trying to maintain a friendship, but it is hard at the moment. I have trouble going from that dating thing into just a friendship. We shall see I guess. I also have to decide if I want to go to her graduation bbq this saturday... I still havent decided with that. All of these decisions to make so little time. I guess I will figure it out as I go along, or make some sorta compromise with myself in the middle. I dont no. Well off I go, I didnt really have much to say. Later!
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Sunday, June 13, 2004
So last night my cousin Lisa got married. It was a fun time, as always when I am with my family. Thats one thing I can say about my cousins... When we are all together we always tend to have fun. We always say that we should do it again soon, yet we never do. I am still game for MEDIEVAL TIMES!!! Anywho. It was alot of fun. I would write more about it but I dotn feal like it. So you all will have to suffice with this for now! But dont worry, not wanting to displease my audience here I will leave you with some pictures... 305 to be exact. So those of you on dialup, be prepared for a slow... Slow...load up time. Later all!!!
Lisa's Wedding Pictures These are the ones taken by my father, If anyone else wants to send me pictures from it I will throw them up on the web space and post a link. If anyone see's a picture they want a copy of send my the file name and I will send you the the origial one. not the one where the quality went down so I can make it a smaller file. The dile names are the names like P6122070.jpg
Later all!
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Lisa's Wedding Pictures These are the ones taken by my father, If anyone else wants to send me pictures from it I will throw them up on the web space and post a link. If anyone see's a picture they want a copy of send my the file name and I will send you the the origial one. not the one where the quality went down so I can make it a smaller file. The dile names are the names like P6122070.jpg
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Saturday, June 12, 2004
I feal lonely, and I hate it. I am surprised about how upset I am getting lately, about how depressed I feal. I know part of it is because sheila and I broke up and the other part is that I feal I dont really have anyone to turn to. I have John, but our schedules usally clash and the time we are together its spent excercising. I actaully look forward to that (well not 5 sets of everything that just gets me tired). Besides that I feal I really have no one lately. I have had alot of time to myself and that has just pushed me into a depressed state. I am trying not to be in it, and I am tryign to get out but its just not working out for me. Either everyone is busy, or those who say they can hang out just forget... I think thats the biggest part right now of my upset state, I dont really have someone to turn to.
When dealing with sheila there are instances where talking to her is a doubl edged sword. If something is botherign me and I dont tell her she gets upset with me, and if I do tell her she gets defensive and then mad at me for thinking that way. So I try to act like nothing is botherign me, but when I do that I feal my stomach churn and that all to familiar fealing of bile rising in my stomach. I would LOVE to be able to tell her exactly how I feal, to be able to tell her what bothers me and to be able to tell her whatever it is I need to say, but I cant. So that is something I have to deal with, and I will.
Then there are those people that claim they are my friends. Who are always ready to listen and say they are there for me whenever I need them... But they are NEVER there for me in the manner I need the most. Which is companion ship. These people are more than happy to talk to me in this text format, but when it actually comes to verbal and physical contact they run away with a lame fuckign excuse everytime. It is very hard for me to consider someone a friend whom for years have always had lame excuses when I have asked them to hang out, or have said that they have to see what there doing. I would prefer people just to be upfront and honest with me. If you dont want to hang out with me tell me so. Just come straight out and tell me that you dont want to hang out with me and that you dont want anything to do with me beyond cyber space. It will make things alot fucking easier for me and put things in there place. I am just tired of hearing all the fuckign excuses.
What I need most from people right now I havent been getting. I have needed someplace to go, and people to talk to. I have needed simple human fucking contact. I would like if some girl I was friends with would actually express an interest in hanging out with me. MAybe show up while I am working out of the blue and give me a hug. Hey maybe one of my readers that I am not really friends with but I no will do it. I know what I dont want though. I dont want someone doing it out of pity. I dont want someone hanging out with me because I have managed to guilt them into it. I do not want to be responsible for someone else having a bad night, or a night where they didnt have fun. I know I am not the most interesting person to hang out with. I no I never no what to do. Yes I am more than happy to sit there and watch a movie with someone (the only time I get bothered doing that is if they fall asleep EVERYTIME). I know that my idea of a good time can be somethign as simple as sitting around outside someplace just enjoying a nice night. I enjoy going to the beach and going for a walk. I think there are some people who find me shallow because I dont drink or even have a desire to do any of that crap. You no what? I dont give a flying fuck. If you have to drink in order to have a good time then I dont want to hang out with you anyway.
As for Sheila and I, it is hard to say how our friendship will turn out. It is hard for me to make the transition that seems like she made so easily. For the almost 4 years that I have known her we have been... intimate (sp?). Its hard for me to go from one extream to another. To me it seems like she is not even remotly upset that we broke up. I really dont no if she is. Since she was unhappy with me I will guess that she isnt upset. But she also has a few friends to turn to. That probable also makes things much easier. Having someone to turn to and help take your mind off of things will do that. I just wish I was so lucky as to have that at the moment.
And i might be repeating myself here but I want to make sure I have one thing clear. I do not want ANYONE to hang out with me UNLESS they actualyl want to. If you DO NOT want to hang out with me then dont. I DO NOT want to guilt someone into hanging out with me becasue then regardless they will have a bad time. That bad time will then rub off on me and it will make it a worse night than I would of had sitting home in my own misery. I worry enough as it is when I hang out with someone on whether or not they enjoyed themselves.
On a side and totally unrelated note... My cousin lisa is getting married later today, saturday June 12th of the year 2004. I wish her the best of luck with that. I wont let my depressed state get in the way of enjoying the biggest (most liekly) event in her life.
Okay I am dont typing! I am sure many of you are happy with that, But this was only about 1100 words. So it isnt that much! BYE!
Scott
Oh yea one last thing. THere are those people who fit in the middle and I dotn want them to think that they are not there for me. If you have quesions on how I see you just ask me and I will be honest with everyone. Thats my new policy. I will be brutally honest with people, and not pull my punches. Well at least I will try to be.
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When dealing with sheila there are instances where talking to her is a doubl edged sword. If something is botherign me and I dont tell her she gets upset with me, and if I do tell her she gets defensive and then mad at me for thinking that way. So I try to act like nothing is botherign me, but when I do that I feal my stomach churn and that all to familiar fealing of bile rising in my stomach. I would LOVE to be able to tell her exactly how I feal, to be able to tell her what bothers me and to be able to tell her whatever it is I need to say, but I cant. So that is something I have to deal with, and I will.
Then there are those people that claim they are my friends. Who are always ready to listen and say they are there for me whenever I need them... But they are NEVER there for me in the manner I need the most. Which is companion ship. These people are more than happy to talk to me in this text format, but when it actually comes to verbal and physical contact they run away with a lame fuckign excuse everytime. It is very hard for me to consider someone a friend whom for years have always had lame excuses when I have asked them to hang out, or have said that they have to see what there doing. I would prefer people just to be upfront and honest with me. If you dont want to hang out with me tell me so. Just come straight out and tell me that you dont want to hang out with me and that you dont want anything to do with me beyond cyber space. It will make things alot fucking easier for me and put things in there place. I am just tired of hearing all the fuckign excuses.
What I need most from people right now I havent been getting. I have needed someplace to go, and people to talk to. I have needed simple human fucking contact. I would like if some girl I was friends with would actually express an interest in hanging out with me. MAybe show up while I am working out of the blue and give me a hug. Hey maybe one of my readers that I am not really friends with but I no will do it. I know what I dont want though. I dont want someone doing it out of pity. I dont want someone hanging out with me because I have managed to guilt them into it. I do not want to be responsible for someone else having a bad night, or a night where they didnt have fun. I know I am not the most interesting person to hang out with. I no I never no what to do. Yes I am more than happy to sit there and watch a movie with someone (the only time I get bothered doing that is if they fall asleep EVERYTIME). I know that my idea of a good time can be somethign as simple as sitting around outside someplace just enjoying a nice night. I enjoy going to the beach and going for a walk. I think there are some people who find me shallow because I dont drink or even have a desire to do any of that crap. You no what? I dont give a flying fuck. If you have to drink in order to have a good time then I dont want to hang out with you anyway.
As for Sheila and I, it is hard to say how our friendship will turn out. It is hard for me to make the transition that seems like she made so easily. For the almost 4 years that I have known her we have been... intimate (sp?). Its hard for me to go from one extream to another. To me it seems like she is not even remotly upset that we broke up. I really dont no if she is. Since she was unhappy with me I will guess that she isnt upset. But she also has a few friends to turn to. That probable also makes things much easier. Having someone to turn to and help take your mind off of things will do that. I just wish I was so lucky as to have that at the moment.
And i might be repeating myself here but I want to make sure I have one thing clear. I do not want ANYONE to hang out with me UNLESS they actualyl want to. If you DO NOT want to hang out with me then dont. I DO NOT want to guilt someone into hanging out with me becasue then regardless they will have a bad time. That bad time will then rub off on me and it will make it a worse night than I would of had sitting home in my own misery. I worry enough as it is when I hang out with someone on whether or not they enjoyed themselves.
On a side and totally unrelated note... My cousin lisa is getting married later today, saturday June 12th of the year 2004. I wish her the best of luck with that. I wont let my depressed state get in the way of enjoying the biggest (most liekly) event in her life.
Okay I am dont typing! I am sure many of you are happy with that, But this was only about 1100 words. So it isnt that much! BYE!
Scott
Oh yea one last thing. THere are those people who fit in the middle and I dotn want them to think that they are not there for me. If you have quesions on how I see you just ask me and I will be honest with everyone. Thats my new policy. I will be brutally honest with people, and not pull my punches. Well at least I will try to be.
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Friday, June 11, 2004
what a fucking week. I have literally done nothing! I have gone out no where and had little to know fun, all friggin week. It sucks. I have had plans with people, but I guess something better came up everytime for them becasue they either never called me back after agreeing to hang out or just never returned my calls or whatever it is that happends. SOOOO I have sat here by F'n self all week. what a great life. I guess I am a little upset at the moment, I was actaully hoping (and had them up) on going out tonight. Alas I was sadly mistaken, and I guess I should remember not to get my hopes up. I dont even no what to say... All I know is that the past two weeks have really sucked, and it dosent look like things are going to improve in the near future. That is all. bye
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Tuesday, June 08, 2004
So, for those of you I havent told (I cant remember whom I have told and whom I havent) Sheila and I have seperated again. This time its most liekly for good. We didnt split on bad terms, for the most part we both kinda agreed upon it. We are going to try to maintain a friendship, but it might be hard at first. Oh well, we shall see how that works out I reckon. Okay thats all I wanted to say... Oh yea, we broke up last week some time. bye!
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Monday, June 07, 2004
Something I read today that is wrong, but I found it funny...
when ronald reagan read the news article about himself having alzheimers, do you think he thought 'holy shit i have alzheimers?" OR do you think he turned to his wife and said "hey look honey, ronald reagan has alzheimers."
hehe, that made me laugh!
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when ronald reagan read the news article about himself having alzheimers, do you think he thought 'holy shit i have alzheimers?" OR do you think he turned to his wife and said "hey look honey, ronald reagan has alzheimers."
hehe, that made me laugh!
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Sunday, June 06, 2004
I am tired.... I feal fat.... I need to get laid.... My problems as of right now
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I still cant fucking sleep, and I am in a bad mood. I have decided just to speak my fucking mind for now on with people, maybe thats why I have such stomach problems. I hold everything in, and for now on I shouldnt. No one else holds anything in, and it seems everyone tells me exactly how they fucking feal. Why do I care about peoples fealing when no one else does? So, as long as my bad mood holds it will be starting tonight... So you might get some of my mind clearing angry tangents that you all no and love so fucking much... You are all sick fucks, do you no that? Its 3 in the morning and I have to be at sears in a few hours. I already no its going to be a shit fucking bad day there, and probable a terrible day as a whole. I hate this bullshit. Two faced people with diffent standards with everyone. WHy cant people be fucking true. With me what you see is what you get, I will not sit there and lie to you, and tell you stories. I guess thats where I go wrong, I have a consciounce and I actually care about other people. How come I Dont think I have ever been this pissed before, and I actually hope it stays so I can clear my mind. Hopefully it will feal good, and I think I will keep the angyness.... THe longer I sit here the madder I seem to be getting. HA! Fuck it all!
Your beloved angry person,
Scott
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Your beloved angry person,
Scott
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I cant sleep... again... I have to be at work at 930, I cant wait. I am going to be exhausted. Blah! My stomach is bothering me, of course I did forget to take my medicine. So I am sitting here at 130 in the morning watching Apocolypse Now, and contemplating watching Seventh Samurai (a three and half hour movie). I dont no... Maybe I should just start telling people exactly what I think, maybe that would help me sleep and help me tummy? blah I dunno, back to the tv. Night all!
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Wednesday, June 02, 2004
I am sitting here waiting for work, and I am bored. I am watching Law and Order, and it is interesting. So whats new with everyone? Law and Order is a good show, I tend to watch it everyday. That and I have no life, but thats besides the fact. Okay, in truth I dont feal like typing so bye bye
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Gerry, you already do only make a co-payment on your car payment... you make a high monthly co payment... And rent? Well you can become a bum and live in a churce for free?
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