Sunday, September 12, 2004
So I have to get my bearings straight... make some changes in my life and get myself on the course to be happy on a regular basis again... I think alot of things just have piled up at once these past few months and... well I have just had a hard time taking it. When I am with people I tend to be happy. With some people when I am with them I get happy but then feal... depressed? down? lonley? for the next day or so after I see them (okay so its just one person but yea...). Its all just confusing for me. Well, I will tell myself that I am happy and sooner or later I will start to believe it I reckon,
Anyway... on tuesday I go to see the gastroentologist or whatever there called... So yea I am going to see the stomach doctor then. So who knows how that consultation is gonna go. I will learn what the path is from here. What surgical things have to be done (if any), and whatever else has to be done. I am just hoping to get this all over with. If the news is bad or good I just want to no. In a way it will be a weight off my shoulders.
Okay what else is there... Right now I weigh about 200 pounds. well between 200 and 205, my weight fluctuates in that area. My goal weight is to get around 185. It will be hard, because I really dont want to diet. But what I am pretty positive of is that if I diet enough to get to that weight, then I will be able to stay at that weight with minimal dieting and just excercising. The past few months I have been working my ass off in the gym. Since about June. I have noticed a change in my body also, my man boobs have gotten smaller to where I dont no if they can really be called them anymore (okay they can but I like to think that they arent huge), my stomach has shrunk a little, and my shoulders have thickened and widened again. For me one of my trouble area's are my shoulders, or so I seem to think. I want to square them off alot more. If I get bored I will find a picture of me from like a year ago and show a side by side comparison from then until now. I am pretty sure my shoulders arent as slouched anymore. So far I like the change but I want more!!!
For those who have known me for awhile you probable could reaoize that I have had one thing CONSTATLY on me and that one thing is Altoids. Well, to the surprise of many... I have not had an altoid in a week. Last sunday was the last time I had an altoid... I no, its hard to beleive but it is the truth! Okay thats enough for this post I guess. adios!
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Anyway... on tuesday I go to see the gastroentologist or whatever there called... So yea I am going to see the stomach doctor then. So who knows how that consultation is gonna go. I will learn what the path is from here. What surgical things have to be done (if any), and whatever else has to be done. I am just hoping to get this all over with. If the news is bad or good I just want to no. In a way it will be a weight off my shoulders.
Okay what else is there... Right now I weigh about 200 pounds. well between 200 and 205, my weight fluctuates in that area. My goal weight is to get around 185. It will be hard, because I really dont want to diet. But what I am pretty positive of is that if I diet enough to get to that weight, then I will be able to stay at that weight with minimal dieting and just excercising. The past few months I have been working my ass off in the gym. Since about June. I have noticed a change in my body also, my man boobs have gotten smaller to where I dont no if they can really be called them anymore (okay they can but I like to think that they arent huge), my stomach has shrunk a little, and my shoulders have thickened and widened again. For me one of my trouble area's are my shoulders, or so I seem to think. I want to square them off alot more. If I get bored I will find a picture of me from like a year ago and show a side by side comparison from then until now. I am pretty sure my shoulders arent as slouched anymore. So far I like the change but I want more!!!
For those who have known me for awhile you probable could reaoize that I have had one thing CONSTATLY on me and that one thing is Altoids. Well, to the surprise of many... I have not had an altoid in a week. Last sunday was the last time I had an altoid... I no, its hard to beleive but it is the truth! Okay thats enough for this post I guess. adios!
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