Does any of this make sence?

What a fuckign day... People dont understand me, and I dont no what to fucking do... Today sheila had her Graduation party, I showed up but didnt stay to long. I just couldn't. I went in there and told myself I was going to have a good time, if for no other reason than to be a friend to sheila... Well I couldnt, I am just lost when around her. I don't no how to act, or feal or anything. I am simple just lost! It really does suck. Well anyway, she got mad at me for leavign so soon. I really wish she would understand things from how i see them. She dosent seem to be havign a big problem with us breaking up, but its a little harder for me. I tend to get attached, and when things go bad for me they go really bad. I dont take fealing upset well. So the time I was there I just felt very awkward, I didnt no what to do with myself. When I saw her for hte first time today I didnt no what to do... Do I go and give her a hug? Do I say hi and walk on? Do I go and give her a hug and kiss? I really dont no, and I was lost. So we a little later we put together a volley ball net, just hte two of us. That went okay, even though we barely said a word to each other. Then later she yelled at me for somethign stupid. Maybe I am just to sensitive today, I guess thats it. I dont no. Anyway, around an hour after that I left. I just couldnt see myself having a good time in my current state of mind. I was actually considering going back later when maybe more people would be there, but I could tell she was mad at me so I stopped that line of thought. So now I have no idea if she wants to be my friend anymore, or make hte attempt to or what. She probable talked badly about me to her family, and her friends. All her friends basically already didnt like me so that isnt anything big. But I think I had some respect from her family. Now that is probable all gone. I dont no... At the moment I just feal really depressed. I even went out with some friends and just couldnt get into a good mood, and to them I apologize. Its just alot of crap on my mind. okay I am going. bye
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