Monday, February 23, 2004
Ho, ho WHAT!
How is everythign everybody??? me? I am doing okay I guess. I am just unsure of things as of late. Did you ever get into a mind set where you arent realyl sure if your happy, unhappy, or inbetween? Well, that is me lately. I really dont no what I am. I really really want to be happy, but its been hard lately for me to be. I find that I have been to sensitive to things that I shouldnt be. I just dont really no... I guess in a way its just a culmination of the past 6 or 7 months where I havent been happy. I am just physically and emotionally shot. Now that things are looking up, and I am starting to feal happy again I am just kinda waiting for it to break. I am waiting for things to crumble once again. I really hope they dont though.
I am exhausted by the way, but I cant sleep. For one reason is I am waiting for a certain soemoen to get home, and they other reason I blame John for... Damn bastard! See, I blame john because Him, Gerry and I went and got Donuts from the Krispy Kreme place in Brick. So they gave us a hot one right off the baking assembly line thing. So that was donut 1... Then we got in the car and John gave Gerry and I each one (we bought a dozen, and the first box I dropped...) so that was donut # 2... So after the second one john basically shoived another in my face. And I ate that one. I have felt sick since. DAMN YOU JOHN! okay enough of that...
As I was saying before, I really dont no if I am happy or not. I know at times i have been happy, but more often than not I feal just... here.... I feal like I am going through and empty void. Here I am, a person with no real worrys in life. I have a better family then I could ever ask for, and more support from them than I could ever use. Yet, I feal lost. I guess in a way I want to branch out on my own and learn some of lifes difficulties the hard way. I dont no... Maybe I should find myself an internet ready cave and become a cyber hermit. Where I live off of raw fish and seagals, and masterbate my life away. Oh blah, I am physically exhausted.
I need suggesions... What is there to go out and do that wont go against my own little code of ethics or whatever it is that I abide by.
Well, I guess I complained\ranted\whatever this is enough in here. Time to go lay in bed and wait for sleep to ovetake me. Hopefully it will come soon. G'night all!
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How is everythign everybody??? me? I am doing okay I guess. I am just unsure of things as of late. Did you ever get into a mind set where you arent realyl sure if your happy, unhappy, or inbetween? Well, that is me lately. I really dont no what I am. I really really want to be happy, but its been hard lately for me to be. I find that I have been to sensitive to things that I shouldnt be. I just dont really no... I guess in a way its just a culmination of the past 6 or 7 months where I havent been happy. I am just physically and emotionally shot. Now that things are looking up, and I am starting to feal happy again I am just kinda waiting for it to break. I am waiting for things to crumble once again. I really hope they dont though.
I am exhausted by the way, but I cant sleep. For one reason is I am waiting for a certain soemoen to get home, and they other reason I blame John for... Damn bastard! See, I blame john because Him, Gerry and I went and got Donuts from the Krispy Kreme place in Brick. So they gave us a hot one right off the baking assembly line thing. So that was donut 1... Then we got in the car and John gave Gerry and I each one (we bought a dozen, and the first box I dropped...) so that was donut # 2... So after the second one john basically shoived another in my face. And I ate that one. I have felt sick since. DAMN YOU JOHN! okay enough of that...
As I was saying before, I really dont no if I am happy or not. I know at times i have been happy, but more often than not I feal just... here.... I feal like I am going through and empty void. Here I am, a person with no real worrys in life. I have a better family then I could ever ask for, and more support from them than I could ever use. Yet, I feal lost. I guess in a way I want to branch out on my own and learn some of lifes difficulties the hard way. I dont no... Maybe I should find myself an internet ready cave and become a cyber hermit. Where I live off of raw fish and seagals, and masterbate my life away. Oh blah, I am physically exhausted.
I need suggesions... What is there to go out and do that wont go against my own little code of ethics or whatever it is that I abide by.
Well, I guess I complained\ranted\whatever this is enough in here. Time to go lay in bed and wait for sleep to ovetake me. Hopefully it will come soon. G'night all!
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