Wednesday, November 19, 2003
So I sit here another night with not being able to sleep... I have laid in bed for the past 45 mins trying to all asleep, and there is none to come. :-( Ohh woo is me! The problem with me is that if I dont fall asleep soon after I lay down I start to think... Then the more I think the greater trouble it is I have to fall asleep. In my thinking I just mull over things, and that usually leads to me quesioning other things. I dont no, it all works itself out in the end... right?
Another day has passed and I am still, for the most part, confused about alot of things in my not so interesting life. I think I have to stop worrying about things and just let nature take its course... Its very easy for me to say I am gonna stop worrying, but thats what I do, I worry. See here is the thing that has been bothering me lately...A friend of mine has been seeing this person. I have found out something... bad abut the person my friend is seeing. Well at least I think it is about that person. Should I bring this imformation to my friends attention??? Will the person believe me, or think I am doing it out of jealousy or something? I really dont have any way to confirm this imformation, and I have been dwelling upon what to do for the past week or so... I just dont no what to do? I think tomorrow (well now it is probable today) I will just tell the person. I dunno! So I will switch topics here.
This coming sunday (the 23rd of Noveber) I am going to a Jets game with John. Also on this day it is John Birthday (remember to tell him Happy B-day!). I am rather looking forward to this, I think it should be alot of fun. Prior to the game there will be tail gating with Gerard and his family. Then there will be the game itself. AFter the game I dont no what happends, but either way I think it will be alot of fun.
So tomorrow (wendsday) I am looking for somethign to do in order to make my night more interesting. Any takers on showing me a good time? I should get to the gym in the morning, but for some reason I ahve a hard time motivating myself. I should just look in the mirror and have all the motivation I need... but instead I think that the mirror lies and that my man boobs arent really THAT big. I guess I shouldnt lie to my self that much... I mean, I have cleavage!!! I guess its onto the next topic...
I really dont have anything to say so I will do my usual rambling. For one thing, my eye balls hurt and I am hungry. The problem is that it is to late to eat, and that there really isnt anything in the house that I want to eat. Recently for some reason I have really been thinking about trying to live on my own. I know this isnt a realistic scenario for a few reasons. Mainly becasue I wouldnt be able to afford it, I wouldnt have health insurance, and I probable wouldnt be able to attend school if I did move out. So it is basically just a passing thing. Maybe I am getting to that age where one wants to try his\her hand out at that 'independence' thing from there parents. For me I dont think it would be much differnt. My parents dont stay on ym case about anythign really. The only difference would be that I could walk around naked all the time at my own place, while here I cant. Not that I would walk around naked... I would get cold and I dont want somethign to shrivel up... well you all dont need or want to no about that. I just dont no... I guess I should start saving my money for the future... I am bound to move out someday, and I will need lotsof $$$ saved up to do it. Especially if I have any desire to live in this area. I mean it seems to be a minimum of $350,000.00 for a home now adays, and that is only going to rise I fear! That is just scary. I personally dont want to rent. It seems to me that It is smarter to have money saved away so one could put a down payment upon a house and then just pay a morgage which will be close to the same payment that renting would be. I could be wrong, but how come I dont think I am?
Oh well, time for me to try to sleep again. G'night all!
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Another day has passed and I am still, for the most part, confused about alot of things in my not so interesting life. I think I have to stop worrying about things and just let nature take its course... Its very easy for me to say I am gonna stop worrying, but thats what I do, I worry. See here is the thing that has been bothering me lately...A friend of mine has been seeing this person. I have found out something... bad abut the person my friend is seeing. Well at least I think it is about that person. Should I bring this imformation to my friends attention??? Will the person believe me, or think I am doing it out of jealousy or something? I really dont have any way to confirm this imformation, and I have been dwelling upon what to do for the past week or so... I just dont no what to do? I think tomorrow (well now it is probable today) I will just tell the person. I dunno! So I will switch topics here.
This coming sunday (the 23rd of Noveber) I am going to a Jets game with John. Also on this day it is John Birthday (remember to tell him Happy B-day!). I am rather looking forward to this, I think it should be alot of fun. Prior to the game there will be tail gating with Gerard and his family. Then there will be the game itself. AFter the game I dont no what happends, but either way I think it will be alot of fun.
So tomorrow (wendsday) I am looking for somethign to do in order to make my night more interesting. Any takers on showing me a good time? I should get to the gym in the morning, but for some reason I ahve a hard time motivating myself. I should just look in the mirror and have all the motivation I need... but instead I think that the mirror lies and that my man boobs arent really THAT big. I guess I shouldnt lie to my self that much... I mean, I have cleavage!!! I guess its onto the next topic...
I really dont have anything to say so I will do my usual rambling. For one thing, my eye balls hurt and I am hungry. The problem is that it is to late to eat, and that there really isnt anything in the house that I want to eat. Recently for some reason I have really been thinking about trying to live on my own. I know this isnt a realistic scenario for a few reasons. Mainly becasue I wouldnt be able to afford it, I wouldnt have health insurance, and I probable wouldnt be able to attend school if I did move out. So it is basically just a passing thing. Maybe I am getting to that age where one wants to try his\her hand out at that 'independence' thing from there parents. For me I dont think it would be much differnt. My parents dont stay on ym case about anythign really. The only difference would be that I could walk around naked all the time at my own place, while here I cant. Not that I would walk around naked... I would get cold and I dont want somethign to shrivel up... well you all dont need or want to no about that. I just dont no... I guess I should start saving my money for the future... I am bound to move out someday, and I will need lotsof $$$ saved up to do it. Especially if I have any desire to live in this area. I mean it seems to be a minimum of $350,000.00 for a home now adays, and that is only going to rise I fear! That is just scary. I personally dont want to rent. It seems to me that It is smarter to have money saved away so one could put a down payment upon a house and then just pay a morgage which will be close to the same payment that renting would be. I could be wrong, but how come I dont think I am?
Oh well, time for me to try to sleep again. G'night all!
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